Baby Shower

Gonna make this short and sweet since I'm exhausted and I have a killer headache. Baby shower went extremely well. Started baking the cakes Thursday. Headed up north on Friday and stayed up until 2:30 completing the cakes. Up again at 7 to finish the rest of the food - sandwiches and wraps. I don't know why I was up that early, my alarm was set for 8:30, but I guess my body wanted to get everything done. I made it through the party ok, but towards the end I sat down to put L's shoes on and fell asleep sitting up. I woke up to see people staring at me, asking if I was praying. Um... oops. Saturday night L decided that she wanted to wake up what felt like every other minute to cry so I got no sleep that night. Last night I couldn't fall asleep and when I did I woke up at 3:30 then had a dream that I had a killer migraine only to wake up with one. I'm beat. Completely exhausted and I have work and then class until 10 tonight. It's ok though, I'll manage. That's what energy drinks are made for.

Happiness...

I had my little date last night. It was nice. We met up around 8:30, a little later than planned but he apologized and explained that he had a lot of parents that wanted to talk about their kid's progress, as usual. No biggie for me, I was just chillin anyways. So we met up at a wing joint, sat at the bar and had a few drinks. I ended up getting mine free (even though he was going to pay for them) because the bartender kept forgetting to get them for me. We had a nice conversation, it was very easy, which was cool.

We left around 10 since I had to get home, and we had a nice kiss goodnight. :) He's like, call me, ok? and then told me that he was going out tomorrow night, just in case, or whatever. I obviously can't go out because I have class and L, but it was kinda cute. He like stammered a bit. Not used to that with a guy.

He's just such a geniune person, I've known that for years, which is why we were able to maintain a friendship. I just never thought he'd actually be interested in me, thus the reason I convinced myself that he wasn't boyfriend material, but he is, and it's cool. I went to bed with a smile on my face and I haven't stopped smiling since. It's nice. I'm not going to get ahead of myself like I normally do, I'm just going to take things one day at a time and enjoy them. I already know that hanging out on the weekends isn't going to happen since he has gigs every weekend until June or July, which is great for him, and I am busy most weekends, so at least we're on the same page there. I'm fine with hanging out during the week, there's something kinda intimate about that. :)

Who pissed in your cornflakes?

I’m just going to ignore the haters out there. I know that I’m a great mother and a great role model. I work my ass off so that my daughter can have a good life. I do not break down in front of her. I do not lose my temper, argue, or even insult her father (or allow others to insult him) in front of her. I give her everything that she needs and I have no problem saying no when she wants something she doesn’t need. I don’t give in to her demands simply because she demands it. I also know that I don’t have to justify my friendships to anyone. It is my life and I know what is best for me. I am not in any danger, I know exactly what it is that I want in my life, and that is what I’m working on. The people that are in my life are there for a reason and no one has any right to question that, nor do they have a right to say that an amazing person, who just happens to not be boyfriend material, is toxic simply because things didn’t work out the way I had hoped. Those in my life that were toxic to my daughter and me are no longer in our lives. If people want to talk about me, that’s fine, I really don’t care. I just need for people to leave my daughter and my parenting out of it.

Not this again...

A few years ago my cousin got married to a bitch that is lucky her ass isn't in South Florida, since I'd beat it if I ever saw her. They have since split (thus the wanting to beat her comment). Anywho - the DJ at that wedding happened to be my friend and there was a bit of kissing that night going on between the two of us. Just kissing, nothing more. Well, apparently one of the workers there happened to know J, and he decided to fill him in on the fact that I was kissing another man. J got pissed, tracked me down at breakfast the next morning (where I was eating with my family), took me outside and smacked me around a bit for kissing someone else. Here's the kicker - we were not dating at that point. No, he was living with his wife and we weren't together. I don't know, maybe he felt that since we had a child together that he somehow owned me. It was fucked up, but a busted lip to make out with my hot friend (whom I've been crushing on since 9th grade) - worth it.

Fast forward a few years. J is out of my life and I am (not-so) happily single. C and I are splitsville, have been like that for almost a year, and he's talking about hittin some strange, just for fun. Another wedding comes up, once again my friend is the DJ (I suggested to the couple that they hire him). He ends up staying with me that night and fun things happen. Good times.

I'm an honest person, I just have an incredibly difficult time lieing to or deceiving anyone, especially someone I care about. So was I honest with C? Of course. I didn't think he'd actually be hurt by it. I mean, this is the guy who told me flat out that he feels nothing more than friendship towards me. The guy that dumped me and had the fucking audacity to be chatting up another chick when I was sitting right next to him. He made it painfully obvious that we would never be a couple, so how the fuck could he possibly be hurt by my actions? Apparently he was, based off of a post left on my FB wall. Yes, my actions were 100% justifiable, but somehow it still inflicted damage.

Well God damnit! I wasn't trying to be vindictive, I was just trying to have some fun with a good friend! I am not a vindictive person, in fact I end up feeling horrible if I have caused anyone any type of emotional distress, and the really shitty part is that C knows this. Maybe he's being the vindictive one and trying to make me feel bad for sleeping with S. Well, I won't, ok. I am single, 100% unattached. If you don't want me to sleep with anyone else then you need to get your shit together and let me know what the fuck is going on. I'm not getting any younger, and I don't want to end up alone. Now, I'm not sitting here saying that S and I are going to ride off into the sunset together and live happily ever after - with him it's just sex - but come on, I will find someone; I can't sit at home, twiddling my thumbs hoping that one day you'll open your eyes and see what an amazing person and great catch I am. It's not fair to me. I deserve so much more than that.

Yes, with C the sex is absolutely amazing at times, but it's not worth me being alone and unhappy. I want to get married one day, preferably before I'm 30. It's not fair to put my life on hold because some azzhat can't handle commitment. So don't bitch and don't tell me that you're hurt because of what I do. You dumped me, remember?

Out with the old...

My cousin got married this past Saturday. I was the bridesmaid and L was the flower girl. She ended up having a meltdown as I expected. Anyway, it was pretty fun. So... My cousins were ragging on me because my friend, S (the DJ) was going to be crashing with me Saturday night. The groom kept making comments, "L, they're just wrassling". Um, yeah, wouldn't do that with my kid in the room. Good news though, guess where L ended up staying that night... that's right, with the grandparents!!!

After the wedding a group of us ended up going to Duffy's for some more drinks. Of course, I got to hear more fun comments from the cousins about the two of us bunking together. Yeah, we're a pretty close family like that. They were even nice enough to walk by and bang against the hotel room door while we were in there. So, yes, I had some fun that night. Now, this wasn't the first time we've done that before, it's like an annual event. He was pretty funny though, he's like - normally I just wanna get in bed and get busy, but I enjoy kissing you and holding you. How sweet, right? We had a great time, lots of laughs. I could barely walk this morning, and I've got some fun bruises - yeah, kinda got a bit rough. But that's just how we roll.

Since the both of us are single now, we decided that we need to do that more often and we should try it sober. lol. It's always a good time with him. Might be going to see him working the club some weekend - maybe this weekend if I can get my grandmother to watch L for the weekend. It's too bad that he's not boyfriend material because we happen to have a lot of fun together when we meet up. So, yeah. Fun times this weekend. So happy he's single now so I have my booty call back. :) btw - he's the hottie with the mic...

Just my luck...

I was a bad girl tonight. Instead of going to class, like I sould have, I decided to play hookie and go to the mall. Yes, I know, bad Roo! Ok, I'll take my beatings later - please... :) Anyways... So I went to the mall and didn't really find anything worth buying, clothing wise. I did happen to find some pretty kick ass accessories, including an Alice In Wonderland Hat - Off With Her HEAD!!! Yes, I am super psyched about the new movie coming out at the end of... March, I believe. I have it on my calendar at work, but I can't really remember when it comes out right now. Regardless, I cannot wait to see it. Anything with Johnny Depp and I'm all about it. Ok, so I kinda went off on a tangent there. Went to the mall, bought a few things, and then decided to go to the Billiard Club for a drink and some food. It's been one hell of a day and I needed something quite strong. Whiskey Sour it is - with my main man, Jack. Point being, I looked around the parking lot before I walked in and I see that it's all clear. As soon as I fucking walk in, the pcysho weirdo dude comes in behind me. Just my fucking luck, right? And, to make things better, the bar is somewhat full so he's sitting like 2 seats from me. Luckily he hasn't said anything at all, and I've got my fabulously kick ass Alice in Wonderland hat on, so I'm totally avoiding any eye contact. Oh, and I decided to put my ring on - the "engagement" ring that I got from J. Yes, I still wear it at times because it's really pretty and he bought it for me when things were not violent. No, it's not really an engagement ring, thus the quotation marks, but the only finger it fits is the ring finger of my left hand, and it's pink diamonds, so it works when I need it to. Ok, now to finish my Whiskey Sour and comment on the latest drama going on in my man E's life. :)

Oh Tyler, how I love thee...

If you haven't heard of Tyler Hilton, then you're missing out. If you're a fan of One Tree Hill - he played Chris Keller. He was a jackass on the show, but oh..my...God! His music is absolutely amazing! He is incredibly attractive, and I just want him! I think he also played Elvis in "Walk the Line". I saw him in concert one time. He only plays in small clubs, so he was right there. I could've touched him if I was so inclined. I could be in the world's worst mood and all I need is to listen to his music and I'm happy again. He needs to come back to town for a concert so I can see him again. He's just amazing. :)

Just thought I'd share. If anyone's interested - www.tylerhilton.com- he's really worth checking out. :)

Testing... 1..2..3

Social psych test on Monday. I got a recorder for Christmas and I've been recording the lectures and been listening to them non-stop for the past week or so. I kinda love it because it's my favorite class. Been reviewing the notes, retyping them and whatnot. I'm actually reading the chapters, though I'm not quite done with them. If I get out of class early tonight and tomorrow then I'm heading to Starbucks or something to finish the readings. Of course, while I'm getting my hair and whatnot done for the weekend I'll be listening to the lectures again. I know that Steve's tests are uber hard (though I got a B in my Cognition class last semester) - I really want to do well, so I'm studying my ass off.

I'm off on Friday for the wedding. Getting my nails done Friday morning, then picking up the munchkin and heading up to St. Lucie for the rehearsal Friday night. Then the wedding is Saturday! Yay! To give you a heads up on how long this has been in the works - I was pregnant at my cousin's engagement party... L is about to turn 3. Yeah, it was a long engagement.

I was talking to the DJ last night - an old friend of mine from High School - and he's going to be bunking with me at the wedding. Giggity. :) Ok, so I'm not saying that we're going to be having hot, wild, monkey sex all night; L will be in the room as well. I just think it'd be nice to cuddle with someone at night. Oh, yeah, and he made it a point to let me know that he's single, after he verified that I was single. He's not boyfriend material for me, but he sure as hell can be a good distraction. :)

Run, Forrest, Run!!!

My sister is so funny. I posted on FB yesterday that I couldn't join FAU's runners club because it was at a different campus on a night that I have classes. I was being completely sarcastic, since I'm not a runner, but it was lost on everyone. This lead to her commenting that she can start running again in 86 days! She said that I should start running now so that I'm in shape enough to keep up with her when she starts back up after the baby is born. I said it sounded great, and then she suggested that I run a half marathon with her the Sunday after Thanksgiving. I said I'd do it.

So my wonderfully kind sis sent me a training schedule so that I could be fully prepared for November. I looked at it and it starts off with a 6 mile run. Um... I can barely run down my street without getting winded. Yeah, at one point I was going to the gym every day and I was in amazing shape and could run a mile easy, but it's been a few months since then. Ok, it's been a little over a year. So I think I'm going to put that off for a while and work my way up to it. Start out by - hopefully - running around the block in the morning, before L wakes up. There's a 5K on Valentine's day that I think I'll do - not like I have any romantic plans for that day, but I'm not bitter. I can do it, I know I can.

Once I do this it'll be another thing I can check off of my bucket list, and heck, if I enjoy it I might shoot for the full marathon next year. Ya never know. It's about time I got my lazy ass back in shape.

It's cheaper than a new car...

I put my car in the shop this weekend since it's been acting goofy for a while. It stalls for no reason, starts smoking without overheating, and shakes like you wouldn't believe. I'll admit it, I've been very neglectful towards my 7 year old baby. Since I got my grant money in, I figured I'd just get everything worked on so it'd be safer to drive. I, naively, thought that I'd drop a couple hundred bucks and it'd be all good. Well a couple hundred turned into $1300+, with an additional $700 in work still to be done.

There were so many things wrong with my baby. My oil pan had a leak in it and the gasket was worn (explains the puddle I saw in the driveway), so I was almost out of oil. My idle air control valve was shot, which explains why it would stall out on me. My PCV hose was shredded. The guy called me up and told me this and gave me the price and I told him to go ahead and do that and I'll have to wait on the $300 tune-up. He called back and said that the manager really thinks I should get the tune-up, so they'll charge me $150 instead. Of course I said go for it, can't pass up a deal like that. So I also went ahead and for that done - new wires spark plugs, the whole nine. Oh yeah, I also got new wipers and my tires aligned (I have the free lifetime alignment). My car runs more smoothly, but still shakes...

So when I went to pick the car up, Jared told me that there is a small leak in my thermostat. Nothing to be overly concerned with now, but I will need to get it replaced eventually. Since I was already going to make an appointment after my tax refund to get the motor mounts replaced (to stop the shaking), I figured might as well get it all done so I told him to order the part. By the end of the month it'll be like a new car - mechanically speaking.

Internally... I got a new radio for my birthday to replace the one that J broke years ago, so I'm loving the ability to jam out to that. I cleaned out my car and vacuumed, but after the final fix I'm going to get it detailed. I'm also planning on finally getting my window's tinted and getting the dents removed, maybe even a paint job. I cannot afford a new car right now so the best I can do is fix up the one I have.

I really do love the Focus, I just have to stop treating her like a red-headed stepchild.