Beautifully Written - Bob Marley:

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect girls don’t exist, but there’s always one girl that is perfect for you.

and the walls are down...

You ever get that feeling that something great is about to happen…and it scares the hell out of you? That’s pretty much me right now. I’m starting to feel like things are falling into place; that I’m getting closer to my “happily ever after”. I haven’t felt this way about anyone in such a long time. The walls are completely down…he has my heart…and we’re not even an official couple yet. It’s weird and so backwards, loving each other without the long, serious relationship first, but it happened. It’s like one of those romantic comedies – the two people are friends for so long…then become the “friends with benefits”…then something changes, and they find themselves falling in love. It’s kinda huge for me. I mean, hell, the last man to tell me he loved me was J, so we’re talking almost 3 years of not feeling loved. After this weekend though, I’m feeling it again. I no longer have the feeling of unrequited love; the feeling’s actually mutual. It’s amazing and it makes me so happy I almost want to cry, but at the same time I’m kinda scared. I’m not sure what the future holds. He could seriously be the one. With other guys I didn’t want to get involved because I enjoyed my freedom, knowing that I could still look around and see what else was out there. With him though, it’s different. I can honestly say that there is no one else that I’d rather be with. I hope he feels the same way…I think he does, or at least is starting to. Just wish I could get inside his head to figure out what he’s thinking, to know how he really feels. He’s so absolutely amazing with L, but would he be willing to be her step-dad if it came to that? We’re a package deal – it’s like insta-family with us. Is he ready to basically have a kid? He certainly acts like it, just don’t want to get my hopes up too much. I love him and I’m happy and I just don’t want this feeling to go away. Still, not gonna rush it. Even though people give me crap about it, I’m gonna do things on his schedule so that he doesn’t get overwhelmed with anything and run away. Hell, I don’t care if I’m the friend, girlfriend, or wife…as long as he continues to be a part of my life I’ll be happy. Ok, that’s not entirely true – y’all know I’d love to be more than a friend. I want to be the only woman he could ever see himself with. Might be asking for a lot, but it’s what I want. I’m willing to wait for it too; he’s so beyond worth it.

Interesting Turn of Events

I've been fairly quiet lately, I know, but it's because I've been trying to figure some things out. Let's see what's happened. So, the bartender, nothing really ever happened. Not gonna lie, I was kinda upset about how things turned out. Dude was dealing with some personal issues; his grandmother was sick - and I was there for him, well as much as one could be via text. I tried to help him through it and be supportive, then there was nothing...once again, all communication just stopped. Damn, that shit happens all..the...time!!! Frustrating, but I'm ok with it. Everything happens for a reason, right? Well, I'm thinking it's good that bartender & I didn't work out because I've been able to spend more time with the DJ, and things are going pretty good with him. We're spending more time together, taking trips (and yes, with L), just enjoying each other's company. People keep getting on my case that I need to talk to him and we need to figure out where we stand, but I like how things are going and I don't want to rush anything. We have such a long history...we know each other...and he just makes me so happy. Not to mention the fact that he's just absolutely amazing with L. As sad as it is, sometimes I really think that he cares about L more than J actually does. And no, I'm not looking for a replacement daddy for L, I'm just enjoying this. 

We're actually at his family's lakehouse right now, just hanging out for the weekend. I'm waiting for them to get back so that we can hop on the waverunners. Should be fun!

Ok - I'll post more next week. Later all! <3

Simply Happy

I like him...the new guy. He's super cute and yeah, he's a bit young, but I think will be a good change for me. He asked me to stop by the restaurant last night to see him while he was working, and he ended up sitting with me for a while before it got busy. But man, got the best hug when I got there and left. Just wanna kiss him! I just need to behave and not try to get him in trouble while at work. Can't wait to spend time together outside of the restaurant. He's a cutie and is actually interested, so I'm happy. That's all...just freaking happy. :)

Life is Funny

Wow...so after that nice vent about S6C I was, once again, ready to throw in the towel. Then, during lunch, I got a text from the bartender. Now, I knew he had a girfriend, we talked about that the other night. He told me that she was interested in a 3some but didn't know of anyone to join in, so of course, I was nice enough to offer my services (thus the number exchange). Well... he texted me letting me know that she dumped him. I felt horrible about it, thinking that I was partially to blame, but he said it was entirely his fault. That it obviously wasn't meant to be and if he was really digging her then he never would have flirted with me. He was just frustrated that she was I guess accusing him of cheating and he said he never has, and this is the first time he's been accused of that. But whatever. So... assuming I can get a sitter, we're going out on Sunday. :)

In addition to that, my good friend, the DJ, asked me to call him (this is after poking fun at me via my FB wall about me being a FB junkie). Turns out he has tickets to this pool party tonight for the Marlins game, but he needs to bring girls with him and he wanted me to be the girl. I so want to, but the thing is that I'd have to be at the stadium by 7, and I can't drop Lo off with the sitter until 8. Maybe my sister would be nice enough to drop her off for me, but I doubt it.

So interesting turn of events at lunch. Went from being super pissed and annoyed by guys to not being able to get this cheesy ass smile off of my face. Makes me wonder what could happen next. =)

What the Frickin Frick?!?

Oh...my...GOD!!! Here is my luck with guys; I either have a great guy in my life that suddenly decides to cease communication...or I have a not so great guy that wants to be all clingy and relationshipy super fast. Why can't I seem to find a good balance of the two?

This new dude surpassed the Stage 5 Clinger status...he's at Stage 6, so I'll call him S6C. He's a friend of a friend. She thought we'd be good together - and although he's totally not my type (he's like a 36 year old ginger, skin-headed redneck type guy), I figured I'd go ahead and give it a shot since going after my type of guys hasn't really worked for me. So met the dude on Sunday - went out on a boat with him & my friend. He seemed nice enough. Anyway...then things get to be a bit much. Little things like him pestering me to stop by, just for a quick second, just for one kiss. Then him telling me he wants to be there for me "always" and that he "sees good things for us in the future". This was like day 3 of knowing him.

Then, on Wednesday, I had the day off so went to TGIFridays for some food and a drink or two. The bartender was soooo freaking cute! Flirted with him for a couple of hours...got the digits and whatnot, it was nice. Anyway, apparently S6C was pissy and around 6:30 bitched to my friend that I was still sitting at the bar instead of seeing him - little did he know I'd been talking to her so she was able to fill him in on the fact that at that point I was passed out in bed - Long Island Ice Teas are not my friend.

Thursday he was all upset because I didn't call or text him on Wednesday. I explained to him that I was dealing with some things, and one of them was finally being able to talk to the Producer and getting some closure. Then he got all pissy like, if that happened back in May, why do you need to talk to him now? Um...because I was able to. He wanted to see me that night but I had other plans, then he was texting me later that night to make sure I was actually doing what I said I was doing.

So Friday morning (today) rolls around and I get a text from my friend. She tells me that S6C is ready to throw in the towel because I'm not paying enough attention to him and he's impatient and whatnot. I'm thinking - sweet, no problem there. Then he texts me that he wants me to call him after work to talk about things. What the hell dude? Really, this much drama from a guy that I haven't even known a week? So I told him what my friend told me and he totally goes the other way, being all like - I never said that, and whatnot. Actually, here's what he said...

"no im not any of that im very patient I have been and always will be..don't. Care if you can't go out but the one thing im confused with is if you remotely interested in me all I ask is a text once in a while just to show me that you are...I know your situation i want to be here to help or do what it takes to make you happy and as you know im nothing like anyone you dated before I don't care if I don't see you everyday I only want a sign that you are still interested in me if you are at all im not mad at all just want a kiss that I've been waiting for since Wednesday lol don't be upset with me please"

First off... when did proper punctuation go out of style? Drives me insane! Second - he said the exact opposite to my friend. Come on dude... can't bullshit a bullshitter. And never... EVER tell me that you're nothing like the other guys in my life because I've heard that line so many times it just pisses me off. And that's exactly what it is...just a lame ass line to try to get the girl. Doesn't work for me.

Anyway, I told him that and he said he doesn't want me running anywhere but towards him and how we'd be so happy together and whatnot. Yeah, it might sound sweet to some people, but everything all rolled into one... it's a little much considering we JUST met! Too much drama! So I told him that much and he got all pissy. What the fuck ever. Honestly - I'd much rather be semi-ignored by hottie Producer than smothered by weird S6C.

Never letting my friends set me up with guys again!

When Voicemail-to-Text goes bad…

I had a trial for VM-to-Text, and I got some funny transcriptions that weren’t even close to what the voicemail said. So here are some of my favorites, everything is exactly like the messages I got – punctuation and all. Enjoy:

“Hey honey, I wonder if you’re going to club house right now, go look on as long while looking well thing combi somebody tell you I said was 5825 if you try to call Shafer what I could really use it right now, someone call need an endless lappy please come by after class. Oh look at the office. I was disconnected at all. Whenever you can. I’ll just be like I said I really need you right now, what, right. I love you, Ohio, but thank you. I go. Bye.”

“Yay say oh just cute. I got some good news thing. So just so keep out for me. I shan’t. Bye. He.”

“Hey, sorry to be a booklet really important alright girl. I give you a call of this is me, what’s up with you somewhere. I we’re.”

And finally…..

“Buyers not classroom work. Calling the check on you. I saw your Facebook and twitter status make sure you’re OK. Let me know. See anything back.”

I think technology failed me on these, because I couldn’t really decipher what the heck anyone was saying so I needed to listen to the VM anyway….so…. VM-to-Text FAIL! At least it was funny to read. 