Do You Believe in Ghosts????

There are rumors that the Biltmore Hotel in Coral Gables, Fl is haunted. They say that one of Al Capone's gangster friends, Thomas J. "Fatty" Walsh, was murdered in the 13th Floor Tower Suite on March 2, 1929.

I just ignored those rumors until... today. My parents were staying there this past weekend for my mom's birthday, and - as usual - my mom sent us pictures. One of them was a pic of my dad, that was rather interesting.
Do you see it? The nice skelator apparition in the background? First time I saw it I thought it was a joke, that maybe the room had some special effects that made it look like there was a ghost in the room.


After texting my mom she said that she didn't even see that, that it was really odd, and she was going to look through the other pictures to see how they were. Lo and behold, she found another one... Kinda trippy, right? My mom certainly freaked out.

So - what do you think - is this Thomas J. "Fatty" Walsh, haunting my dad (who is also named Thomas... interesting) - or is this just an interesting photo effect from the iPhone?

New Beginnings

My sweet little angel is leaving the two-year old room and heading over to the big threes, skipping the younger three year old room. She starts her new class on Monday. I went to her open house last night to meet her new teacher, see the class, and whatnot. I love her teacher. She's been working there since Lo started, and she's seen Lo go from having her dark brown/black rocker-style hair that stood straight up to her now California blonde look. Lo knows her and loves her so it should be a good transition.

There will be a few things that are different. 1 - no more sippie cups. She can bring in water bottles, juice boxes, capri suns or whatever, but no more sippie cups. 2 - although they will still play, it won't be all fun and games. Ms. Jen said that the first day of class they learn to trace their names. This class is big on learning and prepping the kids for VPK (voluntary pre-kindergarten). So Lo will learn to write her letters, numbers, draw shapes, and she'll know the months and whatnot. Excited about it. Also, in September they have a karate instructor come in and give all the kids a free class. Then I can sign her up and she'll have karate classes on Fridays during school. Of course, the parents are invited to come and watch the changing of the belts and that ceremony where the kids break the wood or whatever. So excited about that.

Last weekend I took Lo to my sister's and we had a little photoshoot on the beach. It was a "mess the dress" kind of thing. Lo was growing out of her flowergirl dress so we were just having fun, and the pictures look amazing!

Keeping Busy

"Just because you're single doesn't mean you aren't good enough for anyone, it means no one is good enough for you"

I like that. It's a feel good type quote, even if it's not always true.

So one of my friends got engaged; she announced it yesterday. I'm super happy for her, I really am. Just gets me thinking, dang, this will be her second marriage and I'm still completely single. wth? :) Really though, she deserves this, the chance to be happy with someone you love. It's great.

My younger sister keeps talking about getting married. Her boyfriend finishes a special computer class soon and then could (or is) get/getting a pretty kick ass job that means big bucks. If/when this happens I know he's going to pop the question. And of course, I'll be super excited for her, but still feel bitter.

You know, this is seriously the longest I've ever been single since I started dating at 16. I always went from one boyfriend to another. Even at other times when I was officially single for a while, still had the guys there that were like boyfriends without the title. Now I don't even have that. I mean, I could, I'm just choosing not to. Trying that whole self-respect thing.

I'm sure when school starts up again I'll be so busy that I won't be able to think about any of it, so I can't wait. In addition to school I'm trying other things to keep me busy. Lo and I have been walking a lot, traveling to visit family, going to parks. We have the 2-year passports to Sea World, and we're going up in a couple weeks with my uncle and cousin and I'm going to try the shark encounter. Tomorrow we're going to the Keys, gonna go on a glass bottom boat, hang out by the water, have a picnic. Not just me and Lo, but my parents, younger sister and her daughter. Should be fun. Sunday Lo is going to be able to help me with my bake-a-thon. Just in the mood to get in the kitchen and bake, even though I'm not big on sweets. Next weekend we head up to my older sister's house and we're going to do kinda a "wreck the dress" photo shoot at the beach with Lo's flower girl dress. Gotta get some use out of it before it stops fitting her.

Really do have a lot planned to keep my mind busy, so throughout the day I'm good. It's at night, when it's just me lying in bed alone, that really sucks.

The Sound of Silence...

Still a bit frustrated. After all that talk about wanting to be in a real, serious relationship now I’m getting the silent treatment again. Just don’t get it. Luckily I didn’t take what he said too much to heart. Kinda have a very hard time trusting anyone these days, especially guys. Really sucks. I mean, I know I’m an awesome girlfriend. I spoil the hell out of the people I’m with, do whatever I can to make sure they’re happy. I listen, give advice when asked, I don’t give them the 3rd degree if they’re out, I let them have their own lives and don’t think that it needs to be about me 24/7. Still, nothing ever seems to work out for me. I’m smart, attractive, funny, talented, motivated… the whole nine. Still, nothing. I know, I know – I shouldn’t try to force anything, when it’s meant to be it’ll happen. I just feel like I’m always an after thought, like a last resort for guys. I know it’s partially my fault, but that doesn’t make it any easier. I’ve been standing up for myself, being more assertive and letting certain people know that I’m not just a booty call. Makes me feel like I’m not good enough, which is totally stupid. Whatever, their loss. Guys shouldn’t be a concern of mine anyways, I should be 100% focused on my child and my education.

Reason #257 for why you should never confess your feelings...

So Deputy finally decided to text me today. I kinda tore him a new one and he said he was so sorry. Apparently his f-buddy was super jealous of me so that’s why he didn’t respond to my other texts, and yeah, he was with her when he stood me up. So going back and forth about how I’ll never make plans with him and I feel so stupid for telling him how I feel, that I can’t believe he allowed her to disrespect me then took her home to eff her (which he said he didn’t since she was so drunk). After all of that he’s like, well can I come over, I told him no, wasn’t going to allow myself to be disappointed again and didn’t want to see him if he was still screwing someone that disrespected me and our friendship. He’s like, well do u think I’d still eff her if I was coming over? Um, yes. Then he’s like, do u think I’d really do that if we were serious? I said probably and he told me he’d never do that, so I told him flat out that if that’s what he wanted then he should’ve gone on the date instead of standing me up to be able to screw her, and the fact that he’s spent the past week doing so doesn’t bode very well for him. What an effing idiot.

Then, he was like, well I didn’t think the “date” was that serious. I’m like, "uh, told you I was in love with you, we planned to do dinner and a movie (his idea), I said, “so it’s a date”, you replied, “that it is” "– wtf part of that is 1) not serious, and 2) deserving of the quotes around date? He just frustrates me so much, and now, once again, not getting a reply. He’s probably back to boffing the new girl. Whatever.

Done With Emotions

Work Hottie wants to sleep with me. Nothing new, we go back and forth with this a lot. This time it’s different. This time it wasn’t just a drunken text-fest, it was more of a conversation about some “afternoon delight” this week, with both of us being stone cold sober. I heard he split from his gf, maybe that’s why he seems more serious about it now. This is something I’ve wanted for four years, so it’d be freaking sweet if it actually happened. I just also think it’d be nice to actually have something other than physical contact. It hit me the other day that the reason I’ve been so nonchalant about that is because I’m so afraid of getting hurt. Hooking up with unavailable guys/guys that I know I wouldn’t date seems safe to me. It is what it is and nothing more. I’m just afraid of being in another relationship and having it fail.

The other day I messed up big time. I was talking to my ex, the deputy, and confessed my feelings (in my defense, I thought he already knew). He was talking about his new f-buddy and I made a comment about him getting me jealous. Then I told him that I really do love him, that I never wanted us to split and that I always thought we’d get back together. He said he didn’t know and that he felt stupid for not knowing. Then we made plans to go out Friday night, dinner and a movie, an actual date. I was pretty stoked about it.

So later that night (Wednesday), I sent him a text saying good night. He said he was going to the casino with some guys from work so I said, “drive safe if you’re at the casino and wrap it up if you’re with your new girlfriend”, just a little joke. Then I get this text back, “I’m not his new gf why don’t you come over and say hello”, I said I couldn’t, but told them to enjoy the night, to which she replied, “We will, don’t worry. To bad u can’t join us”. Then I got three calls from a blocked number, right after that.

I was so hurt. I mean, to have her text back is one thing, to have her call me is completely different. Then I got his text which just made things worse, “Oooo u texted while the new chick was around bad Sandy! Lol ill talk to u tomorrow do not answer this text! Have a good night! :)” So that irked me, but I didn’t reply until the next morning. Then I sent him this, “1) u said u were going out w/ the guys from work, not new chick. Had I have known I wouldn’t have texted. 2) Really? The day you find out how I feel u allow her to text and call me? That is just so disrespectful. 3) how is this my bad? I can’t believe u didn’t even think to apologize. 4) I really shouldn’t be surprised. It never ceases to amaze me how cruel and clueless some people can be”. No comment from him.

Later that night I sent him another text to see if we were still on for Friday – trying to ignore the previous night and give him a pass since I knew he’d been drinking. No reply. Friday night comes and goes and he never called, texted, just a complete no show. Kinda made me glad I didn’t bother getting a sitter. Still, it hurt me a lot. I mean, this was the guy that I told everything to, the person that’s supposed to be my best friend, and he just treated me like garbage. Normally I’d be concerned that he got hurt at work, but I know he’s on vacation for a few weeks. I’m so done with being hurt. I just really can’t handle it anymore. That’s kinda why I’m really considering the afternoon delight with WH; just do my thing and leave emotions out of it.